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[05 Mar 2008|09:54am]
Why the hell does LiveJournal still exist?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
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[09 Sep 2007|01:19am]
Holy shit. I just realized that my livejournal still existed. HAHAHAHAHA.

Short update, sure.

Friends are great. I feel like I've lost close-ness to some of my ladies, but eh. . .what can you do.
Summer was pretty good this year. Went to a lot of shows, made new friends, got fucked up a few times. . . you know. :]
Got a new car- 2007 Chevy Cobalt! In ya face.
I work 3 jobs. ca$h m0n3yZ.

Yeah, that's about it.
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[26 Apr 2007|03:14am]
Today's my 20th birthday. w00t.

Also, Happy 18th Birthday to Miss Kelsea Cardoza. =]
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[22 Mar 2007|01:24am]
Why do I still have a livejournal? I barely write in it.
Here's a little update, I guess. . .
4 funerals in 2.5 months, not fun. Especially when one was a good friend of mine, and 2 were family related. Hard times.
I work at Honey Dew Donuts again, but not the one I used to work at. . . they're horribe people.
I lost some friends. It sucks. I hate it.
I'm almost caught up with paying off my debt to my parents, w00t.
Oh, and my parents are def. moving to Florida, sometime before the winter coming up.
So. . . I'm sort of apartment looking?
Oh yeah, I'm still single! 6 yrs baby :(.
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[30 Dec 2006|08:38pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Doug decided that he's not waiting forever? So it's done.
Yeah, I kinda got the hint when he told me one day 'We're not going out and we're not an item.'
Oh wait, on top of that. . . that he only dates 'aggressive girls'- which is by his standards is you have to want to drink a lot, do a lot of drugs, and get hardcore sexual in anyway. . . with 2+ people.
SORRY, not me.
Thanks, asshole. I wasted 4 months trying to think positive, and it bit me in the ass.
Oh yeah, thanks for the tattoo.

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Ryan:"What do you want from me?" Marissa: "I want you." [02 Dec 2006|01:41am]
[ mood | sick ]

I haven't updated this son'bish in a little over a month. So I suppose I'll do that now. Not much else to do.
I've been sick since Tuesday- fever [103], soar throat [which could possibly be strep], my right gland is swollen, and I have a minor ear ache to my right ear. Isn't that the best way to start off the holidays? I don't feel like I'm getting any better. Mom brought me to Urgent Care this morning. . . oh, this is awesome too- I have NO health insurance! Ever since Shaw's fired me, no more health benefits. So my visit was $155. I feel bad that my mom had to pay, but she said I'm worth it, I'm her daughter. Mom also made me home-made brownies yesterday. While being sick, I've been watching the OC 3rd season. I'm so hooked on that show, it's ridiculous. My brother downloads everything now. And what's cool is he bought a 40'' polaroid flat screen HDTV, and he hooked his computer to it. . . so let me tell you, it's sweet. I have a feeling I'm going to be sick for a few more days, if it reaches Tuesday, that's a week!
Tj Maxx hasn't called me back yet on my orientation, but from what Ms. Curtis said, I'm 'definetly on the list.' I'll call her when I'm not on my death bed.
Doug's wonderful, as usual. Stacey, Sarah, Amanda, and Shannon all met him, and they like him. They said he's pretty cool and he has a good head on his shoulders. Jesse's friend with him, it's nice. Ashley likes him, Erin think's the same. And everyone's said that he's cute, so that makes me happy =]. He's teaching me so much, and I admire him for that. He's trying to help me grow and become more of an adult, I love that about him. I actually just got off the phone with him. He's a sweetiepie<3.
I got my first tattoo! The heart on my hip is cute!cute!, he paid for it. And when Christmas comes, and hopefully I get ca$hmon3yZ, I'm going to make an appointment to get another tattoo.
Not much else is going on, except I'm working crazy hours for Mattel. Stasia works with me, which makes the job fun. Customer service is a little stressful, especially when you have a temper like and you can't tollerate idiotic people.
Oh yeah, Deftones are playing tonight in Boston, and I'm missing them. I think god dislikes me right now.

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"What's the total, Larry?" "I don't know, $29 o'suttin'." [28 Oct 2006|11:55am]
[ mood | happy ]

So, I don't write in here much. And when I have [in my past few entries], I'm sure you've noticed I've been acting maybe just a little under the weather, a little depressed, miserable even?
Well, I'm not feeling that way now, not anymore. So much shit has gone on it's ridiculous. Where to start.
I got fired from Shaws last month for using discarded coupons. I admitted to taking them, and offered to pay lost provention $50. I told the truth and offered money, and I get fired. But Nancy Brodin lies, gets shown camera footage of herself taking coupons, cries. . pays them $30 and gets the job back? And she only works 3 days a week? Bitch. Oh well. At least I was honest. And I still have to pay. Ugh.
So, I've been bumming the past new weeks not having a job, well. . . besides Mattel, in which I'm making mad money to pay off my bills. I just paid off Verizon- $500. I owe dad $650 for a new engine [but that can be paid anytime]. I owe $420 in other bills. So I'm doing alright.
I actually just had an interview at TjMaxx yesterday. I have orientation either next week or the week afterwards. So I'm happy. And I get to work with Ashley G., Brittany, and Liz! I'm amped. And I'm going to be a refunder at the service desk. w00t!

Ah yes. I can't forget. . . Doug.
Who's Doug? He's my new interest =]
I met him last month at a party, we got to talking and realized we have a good amount of things in common- we know some of the same people, like the same music, etc., AND. . . he somewhat knows my dad [through his van]. Weird huh? He's so mature and responsible, very good head on his shoulders, and works a very good job- interior wood working / designing on multi-million dollar houses. It's nuts. We like each other, but we're taking it slow and seeing where it goes, which is comforting. We see each other everyday, enjoy one anothers company. . . we're pretty much dating, without the title. He bought me my first tattoo! I got a heart on my hip, it's cute. Here's the catch- he's 26. But it doesn't bother me that he's 7 years older than me. I have cousins that are married that are 15-20 years apart. And, he has a 7 yr old son. That doesn't bother me either. I love kids. And his son is so smart. He knows me as 'Angie' and that I'm 'Dad's girlfriend' haha.
Everything's going good right now, I have nothing to complain about.
I'm actually going to a halloween party with Doug tonight. He's a hawaiian tourist, and I'm a saloon girl. Great pair, huh?

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[19 Sep 2006|10:50am]
So, Summer's over. Good.
Fall's coming. Sucks.
Then Winter. Shoot me.
I went to Family Values Tour with Christy! It was fun actually.
Deftones did an excellent job as usual. Jeeeesus I love Chino Moreno.
Still meeting new faces, which is cool I guess. Doesn't hurt to make new friends, right?
Some of my 'friends' are still shitbags. It's a shame. And a half.
I'm in debt, $1,400. That's what I owe my parents for numerous amounts of bills I don't know how to pay. So I have to get a 3rd job.
Emphasis on 'have to.' That's only until I start up college in January.
Holy Shit! Did Angela use the word 'college' in her vocabulary?!
Yes. I thought about it and I'm going to go to CCRI for Medical Billing.
Hopefully things will change, be different, and be a little on the brighter side for the new year.
"Bring on the piss."
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[27 Aug 2006|12:44am]
I think I can honestly say that a lot of my 'friends', are shitbags. And some of you have changed in ways that I dislike. Ew.
I want to get away from New England, asap. Thank fucking christ I have a weeks paid vacation from Shaws. . . the 3rd-9th. I think I'm going to go to a van run with my parents that weekend. I'll smoke and drink my brains out 'til I feel that rush of numbness. I won't have to give a shit or two about anything.
I'm broke as fuck. I should go to college. Emphasis on the word 'should.' But my lack of efforts in high school make me think otherwise. I've screwed up. I still screw up.
I've heard my here-and-there entries on here are so-called depressing. Yeah, that shit happens.
Notice there's a lot of "I's" in here? Yeah. That's because, [yet again] I fucking SUCK.
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[20 Aug 2006|02:01pm]
Alright. Here's another little update.
The summer's almost / pretty much over.
The whole thing's bascially sucked.
Being sick all the time, no money, assholes assholes assholes!
This is the 2nd summer in a row that I haven't gone to the beach. Cool.
I think the only time I enjoyed summer at all this year, was meeting new people [Michelle, Jess, Kayla, etc.].
I'm a unhappy, depressed, miserable, bitchy little 19 year old girl. I want help. I need help. I don't want to be like this anymore. =[
If my family and I have the chance of moving to Florida, I'm taking it.
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[25 Jul 2006|12:18am]
[ mood | dorky ]

Here's a little update.
Summer pretty much sucks this year.
It was a hell of a lot better last year.
That's about it.

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Bitches smoke crack! [02 Jun 2006|08:48pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Everything's pretty good right now.
The weather's pretty summery. Minus the rain. I'm not aloud to wear shorts at work. Screw that.
Both my jobs are ok. They're easy. And I make my money for not doing much of anything.
My car's not sketchy anymore. Siiiick.
I got my AC put in my window. My pool's now open. And I got direct tv put in my room today.
Micheline and I have basically re-united. And every tuesday we're making it a point to go to 80's night. And not to get shitty either, to dance. Dancing is fun, + burns calories.
Exotic Tans is my new love. It's amazing. I just want to be mad cute for the summer.
Moonlights is the normal weekly eats. Wieners for $.90, hell yeah.
Friends are terrific♥. =]
So is text message love. [!!!]

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It's just the cutest thing. [14 May 2006|04:59pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Sometimes I wish I had no feelings, so that way I wouldn't feel or get hurt the way I do.
OR, I wish I was just treated better. I wish people were more certain or sure or positive about certain things. I don't know. . .

On a differnt note, this non-stop rain sucks.

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It seems so sad to call this home. [08 May 2006|11:39am]
[ mood | depressed ]

Here's a short, brief update.

My birthday, was alright. Way better than last years anyways.
My friends, are alright. Some I see way more than others. I don't know.
My jobs, are alright. Team captain at Shaws isn't all it's cracked up to be. And Target in Lincoln hates me basically.
The weather, is good. It's still a little cold out though. Get summer here asap.
I'm getting tan. Which is a plus.
Other than that, my emotions are a huge rollercoaster. And I'm getting myself mixed up into things.

Oh. . . Kate and I are ok. Weird huh?
Edit: FUCK THAT BITCH. GO BACK TO CALI.

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If I leave here tomorrow. . . [23 Apr 2006|12:35pm]
So, yesterday I went out with Shannon and we got out nails done. Mine are red. "Whore nails."
The rest of the night consisted of drugs and drinking.
Lets just say the night ended with me puking all over myself, and everywhere in my car. And I called my mom because I needed help. I'm a bad kid.
So now. . . my punishment is 11 o'clock curfew weekdays. And 1:30 on weekends.
Oh, and Ricky LaSalle's a fucking slob. And he's not aloud over mi casa anymore. Sicksick.
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[17 Apr 2006|02:32am]
[ mood | tired ]

Well, Easter sucked. I got no candy. And no "Happy Easter!" from anyone in my family. I worked 11-3. Well, 11:20-3 due to stupid church traffic. It was dead. My 20 minute break turned into a 45 minute break due to me not caring. I later on went to Tia's house, where I went to sleep on her couch for like 2 / 3 hours? None of my family talked to me except for my little cousins-- which they talked about knitting and peeps. Very eventful. Then I went to Dennis' and we watched Anchorman, and I fell asleep.

I want summer here now. I want $2,000 now. I want a vacation now. I want more friends my age now.
I want. I want. I want.
. . .And I will not get.

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They call me on and on. . . [06 Apr 2006|09:15pm]
[ mood | upset ]

I have a wish list. This is what's currently on it. (In no particular order)...
1. To have $2,000 in my posession.
2. Nothing else.
3. Nothing else.
4. Nothing else.
5. And, nothing else.
6. Oh wait, Ralph Lauren sunglasses.

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[16 Mar 2006|01:59pm]
For once, can we fucking do something that I want to do?
I'm so fed up with this shit.
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[13 Mar 2006|07:16pm]
I started out on the wrong foot
Now I'm not myself
I am Jekyll, I am Hyde
Found this place to hide
Come seek me

Oh, so up and down
So back and forth
So insecure
Can't get this taste out of my mouth
Swallow it down
Pretend

Hold it, hold it all in
Let it build up
Build a bomb
Blow it, blow it away
Clear it all out
Just end it

I'm just a normal person
Without those problems
When did it change?
Admissions so embarrassing
I'm on the verge of tears again

Hold it, hold it all in
Let it build up
Build a bomb
And blow it, blow it away
Clear it all out
Just end it

Oh look I took the Band-Aid off
Did I take it off too soon?
Hysterical confession
My big courageous move

Don't gasp at the predictable
A comforting lie can't last
Preordained checklist of this awkward love
It's so sad

Hold it, hold it all in
Let it build up
Oh, build a bomb
Blow it, blow it away
Clear it all out
Just end it

Sort it, sort it out
Just give it back
No thank you
Toss it, toss it away
Eliminate
Just give up

I can't decide
This tug of war
I'm feeling weak
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[10 Mar 2006|10:50pm]
I think now it's sinking in that after highschool, some things, a lot of things, most things, and/or everything changes.
I should believe my parents more when they tell me things like that.
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